Says the Lord all almighty, "Come to me all who are weary and will give u rest."
Saturday, July 15, 2006
today comp fer jcdc rocked..we beat tjc n cjc..we;ll tjc was clear but cjc i had my reservations but one thing was the third speaker frm cjc well lets jus sae he was..er interesting haha yc cleer up.. aha personally i dint gif my best so dears im so sorry menon u wel did fine la..but opalyboys diotn win at he ebnd of the dae hmm flirts fereva bum aha.. ok i guess wasnt so aggressive cos i had to remind my slef to nt turn fluff like cos the ambience was so tpjc when i had my win at the gavel club comp haha..
gt the poem on the topday haha enjoy!!
untitled the joy of winning
so amazing
especially if
its 2 cases clinched
but today its one of mixed emotions
i take the win with a pinch of salt, a portion
i didnt do my best
was too detached
then agian it was meant to be good
deb if u have to know, i supressed my mood
was afraid of fluff
the ambience reminded me of my past
but again its a sacrifice made
either public speaking or debate
sometimes i just know i cant get rid of these me
emceeing, public speaking stil part of me
i guess its a game of code-switching
that eventually i'll do wihtout flinching
thank you GOD for not lettign me down
i guess ive learbnt n grown
once again thank you darlings
you've made me have have storng feelings
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For you, I will cry black tears.
10:15:00 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
to dear with love
dissapointed in you i was
but honey you're long lost
lost from my mind
my heart and life
you were my everything
well at least in the neo-prints
but decisons made
i cant break
all it took
was the bbq
first the tantrums
then the tempers
honey its a childish game you play
you ought to know im no bunny
i look nice
but im lethal like mice
i thank you darling
for all the sweet things
the concern you've shown
that ironically irks to the bone
i hate that you're too nice
my mister nice guy
i wished you were more selfish
hmm, sometimes
too protective like a daddy
wil miss the lunches
we had our hunches
the happy moments
we hled in our abdomens
pregnant with a new found freedom
darling i guess your right, Im doomed
doomed? how so my reader you may ask
im doomed because im a flirt ahem!
sorry darl the truth came out with pre u sem
i guess i was both your pride n fear
honey just so you know i'll dissappear
dissappear from your life for good
no more competition for you im sure
then again thank you for everything my dear
poem's dedicated to a specail someone that i've given up hope on. dear if u eva read this i hope u'll understand cos i nebva did neo wat hap to us. but still well it was gd.
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For you, I will cry black tears.
9:24:00 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
fer the losers
-the whiney poem-
hey you smarty pants
realy makes me feel so damp
a damp cloth to be exact
who slogs out to say no less
but who gets the results?
not me but really damn, you!
its pisses
i sizzle
sigh, why so unfair?
hiaz, i hate this stupid affair..
of brains n knowledge
but again intelligence and slack
who wins?
obviously you!
hmm where's the poem getting to?
seiosly no idea, sad
its just feels so crap
hard work pays off
sure, i know!
but agian today seems so bleak
with nothing but another dip
dip in grades and moods
but why be sooo blue?
firstly, things will get clearere with debates
competiton on saturady with menon and the rest
then on monday comes emceeing
& it'll be my shot at fame
come cuzzy come
sihg, again my silly cuz
no peace, no rest
but agian in GOD im blessed..
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For you, I will cry black tears.
9:57:00 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
er ppl u dont haf to noe anything jus understand my feelings thks
vault..
mistakes my dad
you make i accept
but dad dont u realise
there is no point in me trusting in things that dont materialise
once twice thirce too many
sometimes i wonder am i too giving
its the dissapoinment deep within
dad you need to know to be redeemed
promsies made 2 years bck
i will never ever forget
break thme i dared you to
i guess you proved me too
hmm why? i ask constantly
im no longer a child daddy please
please no i cant take no more
its just freakign hard to do more
i love you dad & i know you do
but i guess its time you gave me some too
some time i mean yes indeed
i just dont think its fair for me to give inÂ
For you, I will cry black tears.
8:50:00 PM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
save me!
stop, just stop
I cant take the talk
chatters in the air
when econs drones, the affair
stop, ppl stop i cant take no more
my heart ignites with anger borne
I fight to stay silent
to not chide you in relent
the lady up-front yaks
while issues rise when chapters clash
fustration amounts relentlessly
for the need for links shown relatively
everything seems annoying
for the stupid 2 hours so harrowing
laugh no more you B***HES
cant take no more chitters
the mish mash
the spish splash
of a language known by the Indians
what a silly lecturer you are you chindian
she mixes H1/2
isnt that as silly as you in a tu-tu
sigh, no more i beg
i want debates to ease the lag
the lag in my head
cured also by my sexy bed
on the pages turn
i have to let my heart burn
private cost & benefits
make no sense to my own feet
haha a poem i made up during econs lect. was damn irritatedÂ
For you, I will cry black tears.
10:02:00 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Song of the Vindicated
the long awaited cherubic smile arrives
finally I heave knowing it is truly me alright
the dark clouds part for a new dawn
the troubles begin to seem all gone
they seem diminished
relative to a future no longer bleakish
to think all it took was just one
one ms yang
adding on would be doses of love
from wonderful friends and people i love
then agian it must the won tons
which brought the pain down by the tons
soothing therapy from hor fun
then the crappy coffee drunk
spending time down at sheng shiong
where pain eases with the thai songs
the crowd distracts
the pain retracts
the rain pelts
washing off the pain i felt
the song i sing a renewed one
to the audience of my most honed
self-reliqushed jammer speaks
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For you, I will cry black tears.
5:59:00 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
kays im really angsty this few daes so sorry but dears im into poetry most entries will be..i gt a nu tiny journal of my poetry i craft daily.. so well jus wanna sae tat im happy fer havign understanding parents but hate it when they worry. fer the record i was into debates cos it was june holis n i had no choice n hanging out was norm cos it was holis but im disciplined when its sch la..n ncik wahas hes no baddy fer real jus a real gd firnd like ah yeap pls ppl relax..(sings in headn n nods haha) haha thks ah yeap
there goes..the poem fer todae..oh ya i rock as third haha
WHY? WHY? WHY?
the emotional junkie mood im in
has turned me into more than i've been
i noe that you mean well my mum
but you know that im done
im done for its the truth
for the one off flop made the news
im trying hard to mak eu pleased
trying hard to do the least
the least in hanging out late
or should have you forbade
i try not to spend time
on the computer all the time
but agian what is enough
my dear mother hen
i left the school in my best mood
i made the move to have my food
then it was off to Pasir Ris
so that i could settle my needs
then again you must call
to find out im not fine
in your terms not very nice
a naughty girl who lies
angsty jammer jaz
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For you, I will cry black tears.
11:05:00 PM
happy jammer me..dears
hear jaz bubble..froth
n maybe efferversate lol(if tat exists)
ok fine u dunno me??? hear all then..
nameo: jaz,minty,jt
am a: jammer,daughter,debater,friend,crapper.
bdae: 04121989 lol hint hint
she loves: GOD duh..my peeps..MJC lol..Alhena 1/4..debates..her guit mr dewey
me wishes??lol
him, the one i'll marry eventually
do ok fer mids
get a lava lamp?
nu condo in sept..arrgh sp far
nu bike?
nu rm?
